TEACHER...TEACH HER?

    Being a teacher is indeed a noble profession. It's not the compensation nor the position that is important, it's the heart, the vision, the burden and the fulfillment of teaching and guiding the students how to learn, how to reach for their goal, how to face and win the battle. We should help them to be the best person that they can be and be a great motivator to make them go on with life, life that is worth living. Sad to say..it's not what I have been seeing with some of my colleagues. 

     Everyday, my heart aches for these kids. They are not the typical students going to school with enough money on their pockets to spend during break time. They do not come from families who have much to spend on, parents who are good providers, a home with a father and a mother sharing responsibilities in taking care of them, a day without people barking and lashing out profane words, a table with a food so it can sustain them through out their class period. I have seen students running after some trucks or vans to hang out and make their back ride so they can go home, too dangerous for them. Some students even go to school without anything on their stomach. What does a government can do about it? and how about their parents not minding them off? And what about the teachers? These kids are looking for someone who can give them strength to carry on, many of them stop dreaming, never wanting to go in college but to get a job to sustain them. I should say, teachers could be their turning point. If nobody believes in them, teachers could be there to inspire and maybe extend some help for these kids that dreams are not impossible if they just focus and think that their dreams are just out there waiting to happen.

     I kept saying to my advisory class, never stop dreaming, dream dreams, go for it, never say I can't; if they wanted it and if there's a will there is always a way,  reasons are always there too for them to say they can't. I have heard a colleague saying that we should promote the kids to graduate since they would never get into college anyway, and as if their life would stop from there. Teachers should inspire, motivate them to go on, never be the one who will make them stick with what they have. Teachers should never put an end to what these kids can do more. Sorry to say that some teachers took advantage of some students wanting to pass their subjects or to graduate. Teachers asking for some "special projects" not even related to the subjects they are teaching. Whoa!,,I even heard one of my students that she was asked to buy an electric fan. Sad, but what should we do? Is it the system? Is it the people within the system? or is it the government? Well, if it takes two to tango, it takes many to singkil.  (",)

What's more painful?...

     The "physical" definition of pain is an unpleasant sensory and emotional experience associated with actual or potential tissue damage, or described in terms of such damage. But what about the pain that we have experienced emotionally?..well, actual and potential tissue damage are not present here. Emotional pain is what we feel inside..things that make us hurt as if we're bleeding inside.
     Pain, according to Don Ranney in his "Anatomy of Pain" says that it is a perception, not really a sensation, in the same way that vision and hearing are. It involves sensitivity to chemical changes in the tissues and then interpretation that such changes are harmful. This perception is real, whether or not harm has occurred or is occurring. Cognition is involved in the formulation of this perception. There are emotional consequences, and behavioral responses to the cognitive and emotional aspects of pain.
     From that definition..I would say pain depends on what we perceive as painful, how we could tolerate a certain pressure, disaster, calamities, life threatening situation, unacceptable words, a love loss..whatever you have in mind that could stop your world for a while. One thing for sure.. what we think would hurt us is really painful.

     Emotional pain is not necessarily the cause of physical pain..and sometimes..emotional pain can cause physical pain. So what's more painful?...Let me see...I met an accident sixteen years ago, I was crossing the street when a car suddenly hit me and according to some witnesses I flew 4 meters away from where I stand.Does it hurt?..I didn't feel anything during those times because I fell unconscious and didn't even know what had happened. Just after I wake up that I had gotten to know I met an accident. I got bruises and stitches in my head. After six hours, that's when I felt the throbbing pain in my head maybe due to a shock...and every time my head aches I always remember the dreaded pain I had felt that time. After a year, I found out that my boyfriend was dating another woman not only one but two. It hurts and I will found out later these incident will have bearing on what I am going through and what I am writing now.

     As everyone perceives it, it's painful to have trusted someone and yet you found out he doesn't deserve it; very painful to have known that the baby inside your womb would not live a normal life; very painful too to have met a blow from the one you have loved most, receiving every words that you would not even thought he would say; and painful too to find out he's turning you to a fool making every bit of what he had done would took a blame on you...and later to find out he got another woman pregnant...Pain??..Yes! very painful..don't even know how I would live every bit of it..I made some mistakes but who would understand?..the one whom I trusted so much now has lost it..Everyday, the pain seethes in, losing my respect to the person I have been with for the past thirteen years.The happier me turns to be withdrawn, and making happy face though sad within. Painful it is that I can no longer say much words as tears began rolling on my face again...and up to you what you think is more painful...